We All Have That Goddess Hiding Within Us!

Until this point, I thought God had been walking me through and making me remember my past and revealing so many terrible moments and feelings for me to grow from those moments and speak and encourage others about those moments. I thought I was supposed to continue to share my story but is that what God wants me to do with my life. 

I now believe God needed me to be able to vocalize and share my pain as a type of therapy that has allowed me to grow and move on. 

I recently took part in The Parachute Goddess Project.

The project is under the direction of Laylonna Hurley.

This is an insert from the website https://www.theparachutegoddessproject.com/.

“We have witnessed and now have experienced our own self-awareness and strength, and it is so empowering, and again it is what you need it to be; us mature goddesses and mommas will know exactly what that means. If you have ever just needed that "ME" moment, that "I Love who I am" moment, That bonding moment with your daughter/Mom/Grandmother, Aunt, Cousin, sister, or friend moment or that "hey, I remember that girl!" You'll find it when you let go and embrace the pure essence of your goddess within!”

As I was reviewing the images sent to me from this shoot, I had an overwhelming thought. So many times, we let the bad memories weigh us down in life. They are so heavy sometimes that we think we will never overcome them. The cuts do run deep, but God wants us to find healing in him from these scares. We must heal and move on. 

Putting on that parachute gave me the feeling of weightlessness. Like all of the pain and the burdens of life were floating away. Many of you who know me know that I have loved to be behind the camera for years. Photography is a love of mine that will never go away, but I have discovered that I enjoy being in front of the camera. As a child, I dreamed of being on camera in some way. I wanted to be an actress, dancer, singer, or model. Just because something happened to change the way I felt about myself and what I thought I deserved in life doesn’t mean the dreams went away. This project helped me remember that.  

I loved that my daughter, mother, sister, and niece all took part in the project with me. My favorite moment was standing on the ladder in front of the airplane as the wind carried the parachute skirt. It was like at that moment that everything was lifted and renewed within me. 

I am going to focus my blogs, social media, and youtube in a different direction. I am sure that my stories from the past may arise from now moving forward, but my mission and goal will be to spread joy and happiness in all that I write. I want to see the world. I want to share that there are happy people in this world. That life doesn’t always have to be massive. In the three weeks of being away from my home town and viewing something new, I have seen such a mix of people. Some seem so uptight and like the weight of the world is on their shoulders. Then I have met others who just smile and strike up conversations with you. I want to be that person; I want to be so happy and content in life that I exude happiness with everyone I encounter. 

I am excited about the direction ahead of me. I am continuing to heal, but I am so thankful to have a new path. This single mom with self-sufficient teenagers is ready to embrace life and start her unfocused adventure.