I Am Not Perfect

I am not perfect. In life I have made many mistakes and I have paid the toll for them, grown from them, and learned to move on. 

I have dreamed of having a Blog for many years now. I would start the process and learn a little about my website but then life would get in the way. I now know that I was just not ready.  

I was so worried about what everyone in my hometown, friends and family would think about what I had to say. But after a lot of prayer and some much-needed therapy here I am.  

I am now confident enough to put it out there. My hope is that my post that I share will help encourage and inspire others who may be having a hard time in life. 

I want to first put this out there....... 

I am not perfect. No one on this earth is perfect. I have many things in my past that I am not proud of. I have made many mistakes and went down some paths that I am not proud of. We all have things that we wish we could take back or change our actions. But that is not how life works.  

What is amazing is that God forgives us and will lift so much off of our shoulders once we learn to forgive ourselves as well. It took me a long time to work through the mistakes I have made. I thought that I was not worthy enough to be able to overcome them and work toward a better life for myself. I thought that I had been so awful at times that I was meant to suffer for the rest of my life.  

Guess what, that is not the way it has to be. I sought therapy to help work through some things that happened to me as a child that come to find out led me down a path of so many bad choices. Now don’t get me wrong I am not cured and free of those negative emotions. But thanks to a Christian therapist that I enjoy still currently seeing as needed, I am a changed woman.  

I now realize that God does not want us to suffer. He does not want pain for us. Yes, He puts us through trials that we sometime think we can’t handle, but in the end, we come out stronger on the other side. He places obstacles in our lives to make us stronger and teach us lessons.  

I can write this with confidence today that I have done so much wrong in my life, but in return I have done so much positive. One does not outweigh the other. They are both there as a reminder of how life can change in a second. How in one moment your decision can lead you down two very different paths. I now recognize this and choose to stay positive and strive to live my life in a way that will please Our Father.  

I am sure I will make mistakes in my future; the difference is that I am now strong and confident. I know how to face them head on. I know how to apologize. I can admit if I make a mistake. I can be excited about my success I may have but extremely humble because I know that you never know what tomorrow brings.  

My desire in life is to inspire uplift and encourage others. I want to help others overcome their past and learn to love themselves and the future they have ahead of them.